Happy Monday!

How was your day? For me, it consisted of working on my transcript of my 2nd Christian movie (just for fun) and working out at the gym. Another thing that I started to do was devotionals.

The devotional that I'm using is called, "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young for every day of the year. Today's devotional talked about trusting in Jesus.

Honestly, trust is a big issue for me because I've had past experiences where I had others betray or take advantage of my trust with them. From then on, I knew that in order for me to trust someone, it's going to take a lot on their part to prove it to me that they're worth it.

But it's different with God.

When I wrote in my journal tonight, writing a letter to Jesus, I knew in my heart that every time I said, "I trust you God," that I didn't mean it. Tonight, I prayed for that courage and guidance for me to acquire or to trust in Jesus because God is always faithful. In relationships, especially with the one with God, trust is a huge part of it. I didn't realize but I had an epiphany that the reason for my constant worrying was due to my lack of trust in Jesus.

I want to stop worrying so much every second of my life.
I want my relationship with God to improve.
I want to draw nearer to Him.
I want to be able to have that one relationship where I can be completely honest and not be scared that I'll get into trouble.

I want to trust in Jesus.

Do YOU want to trust in Him?
Do YOU believe that He will surround you and guide you?

I want to believe and desire for all this and therefore, I prayed and will continue to pray for trust in Jesus and for the exodus of my anxiety.

Jesus is awesome :)